what is love?

i dont miss him as much anymore. why? isit just another stupid crush of mine?
this sucks, i feel dumb. -.-

Goodbye my love.

its the fourth bryan/brian i have connections with. this is so fustrating. i know we feel something, as least i felt something. i sorta want to further cause i think its worth a try. hes been the only guy since i dont know when that can make my heart skip a beat.
but hes gone today, back to where he belong. leaving without a word. maybe im just thinking too much. this sucks.

Can you hear me?

exams exams exams. everyone seems busy with their life. everyone except me i guess.
no ones free to chat, no one frees to go out, no ones free to just hangout.
or am i just boring? i dont get it.

lifes a confusing thing.

And it’s too late for you and your White Horse

tests tests and more tests. projects projects and more projects
seriously kill me!
birthday coming up.
what i wish for?
can i for once say i wish for my prince charming, that will never appear?

Be with you.

im feeling so f-ed up now. seriously. i cannot have 2 phones meh? need to give to him isit? he how old only take a bloody phone. my phone spoil, thats why i want another phone. so what if can repair. can you get a phone i like. since you wanna get a phone. wth get a freaking cheap and ugly phone. WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF!

And even when the roads begin to disappear,

i thought you were different. but i guess i was wrong. you are just another petty guy. im glad i made the right choice.

Like a shout through an empty sanctuary.

i just totally killed my chances with him by being totally honest. SHIT!
guess im gonna be single for a longg longg time now.

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Everything is f’ed up straight from the heart.

training was full of ups and downs this week.
tuesday was great. i got praises played well. did everything.
wednesday was totally the opposite. i got scolded like shit, for things that i did and didnt do. played like shit. but i still did most of the stuff.
i think mostly is cause of my mood? wed had aches all over and stuff and had a longgg break before training. so i had totally no mood for training. and at the starting of the training i got scold like shit for shit that i didnt do.
yeah i know i used alot of SHIT but whatever.

i hope training will be better.
cross my heart and hope to die.

You and I, collide.

when he bend down and helped me tie my shoelace. for a moment i was shaken.